NB: I am trying something different. Below is a conversation in a poetic tone. I drew inspiration from a Chinese drama called Sweet Dreams. Enjoy.

 

RIVER OF FORGETFULNESS

Me: 

Take me to the river of forgetfulness.

Fairy: 

Why do you want to go there?

Me: 

I want to forget those feelings

Feelings that have made me cry

Feelings that have torn my heart in pieces

Feelings that consumed me yet they yielded nothing

I want to let them go

I want to be free

Fairy: 

Are you sure?

Is that what you want?

Me: 

Yes, I have made my decision

I can't be consumed by anything

I can't be controlled by a person who doesn't care

I can't keep running after wind

I will only lose myself

I will end up hating myself

Fairy: 

But why would you want to forget this? 

Didn't you learn anything?

Such feelings are to teach you about life

Are you sure about your decision, my dear?

Me: 

I have spent years in school

What I learned hasn't solved any of my problems

Why keep learning if you can't buy yourself bread with all the knowledge?

Why keep loving and caring only to be hurt?

I don't want to be a sacrifice

If this is my life, why can't I be free?

Fairy:

 But you are free

You have loved who wanted

You have ate what you wanted

You have everything

Why are you crying?

Me: 

Who said having things means happiness?

Why mistake needs with happiness?

The world created the needs

But it failed to create happiness

We have become slaves 

And we think it is how the world is supposed to be

Fairy: 

Where did you learn that?

Have you been watching those conspiracy videos?

Have they brainwashed you?

Open your eyes 

This is the reality

Me: 

If this is the reality

Can I have a ticket out of here?

It doesn't require another Stephen Hawking 

To see that we don't need what we need now

To live is not to build houses and pay bills

Otherwise what is the meaning of life?

Fairy: 

Come let me show you the world

Come on let me fly you above all houses

Let me show you what you don't know

The world is better this way

I promise you will love it

Me: 

What is promise?

I don't like that word

It hurt me way too many times. 

If what you want to show me won't make me forget

Then don't bother 

Adding more memories to the existing ones is death 

Fairy: 

Even if you got to the river of forgetfulness

You will still come back to the old life

And that will be in vain 

How about you accept reality

Come on let's fly

Me: 

How can the world be so cruel?

Who created this life?

If I can't forget this life

Let me die of sorrow

Maybe in my next life

Things will have changed

Bye Bye

Fairy: 

See you then. 

- Ariane Dushime