A Bliss

I long for something rather someone

Someone to look at all time
There to be my rock in my falls

This world has decided to limit my happiness
They say it is your life but it seems you can't live it too

Everyone has turned a blind eye
Why we invent more signals is pointless
When we can't see them float around

The eyes are the only cheap shuttlecocks to a soul
But who can read?
If not who, how long do I need to wait?

Time is money but money too takes time
Even the miracles ask for a price
Why is that person so costly?
Can I pay a sum and get a lifetime friend?
Even money can't solve all the problems
Guess Ariana Grande was wrong too

Is my life a crossword puzzle
Where you have no idea how  to figure me out
Where is that person to read through me with ease?
What is the use of dreaming if they won't come true?

I long for that miracle to appear
Whether dressed or not
All I want is the warmth of fulfilment
That gesture to overwhelm me
Or maybe I am the reason it won't come?

Have I grown too much or am I still too young?
Am I not capable enough to handle the changes?
All I ask for is a life with closure
A life with a soul to hold mine

My so broken soul needs a rainbow over it
To say that all my troubles won't be no more
I long for that ray of sunshine in my darkness
That smile to wash away my depression wrinkles

I long for a meaningful life
Where I have no doubts
Where I can say that I am living
Even in the midst of  war where I can smile
But I guess the only bliss I own are those daydreams.

- Ariane Dushime