EMPTY

Is it true that bad never has shame?

Doesn't pain feel like a psycho for all those murders?

Does guilt too feel proud that much?

Why can't we be emotionless?

Why can't we be painless?

Do these all indicate that we are alive? 

Then I don't want to be alive

I don't want these tortures anymore

I don't want these dreadful thoughts

And those f'ing daydreams of happiness

The happiness I'll never get! 

Arrrggghhh! Whyyy???

Am I that hopeless?

For I believe things will turn great

Just like in the movies?

I obsess on them but this is real

Life is fucked up!

It fucks us too

Was this the plan of my life? 

Who planned this pain really?

I know this is all a test

But why is it so hard?? 

I fail at everything

Maybe these daydreams are my only achievements

Maybe this pain is the only emotion I'll feel

How empty I feel

Just one small thing

Just one thing

And my life can be better

Guess I'll have to wait on these empty hopes

God help me.

-Ariane Dushime